7dp5dt

Well, this time around the wait has been a little different than last time.  I know exactly what pregnant "feels like" and am comparing each symptom and twinge to the last time around.  My thoughts are a little different this time though.  I remember thinking last time that my body was probably not able to get pregnant since I had never had a confirmed pregnancy much less a super late period.  This time I just keep wondering what God has in store, and look at Syd hoping she will have a sibling some day.  We were so blessed to get pregnant the first time around, so I keep reminding myself that it is not a sure thing this time.  I worry and wonder.  But then God reminds me what I have right in front of me... my beautiful, energetic daughter!  I then give her a big hug and change my attitude to gratefulness for at least the next five minutes... =P  Why is it so hard to trust God's sovereign plan?

The wait has definitely been a little easier this time with lots of distractions... a cute, clingy, whiny one. (Teething canines??)  The first few days, I felt the same post transfer cramping and twinges.  But then after that I did not feel the strong "implanting cramps" I did last time.  That is when my faith started wavering.  So then day 5 came and for some reason I felt amazing and decided it was ok whatever the outcome.  Day 6, I started to feel the noticeable fullness and bloat and slight crampiness.  I was also a little out of breath up and down steps or carrying Syd a lot, which normally doesn't happen.  Day 7, today, I have felt all of that but increased.  I told my husband I feel just like I did when I was pregnant with Syd.  I have also started the "have to empty your bladder at 5 AM" or you can't go back to sleep issue.  I could also be experiencing drug symptoms, but I can't deny what I am feeling.

At 5dp5dt I decided I was going to test this time around because I never get the opportunity to in my life (other than EA transfers) to test, and I wanted to experience the excitement of watching how soon we could possibly know!  Last time I only tested a few times randomly.  I had two expired FRER tests left over from the last transfer 2 years ago!!  They just expired this July though, so I assume they will still be valid.  I went and bought 3 dollar t.ree HPTs.  I went all out! =P

5dp5dt FRER: negative, blank
6dp5dt $ test: negative in 3 minute window stated  (VERY faint line later-- evap line??)
7dp5dt $ test: neg in 3 min (faint line a little darker later)
8dp5dt FRER: planned for Thurs. morning
9dp5dt $ test: Fri morning before beta

So with the $ test results... they compare to what I got with Sydney at 9dp5dt, a faint line after the window of readable time.  We then knew with the 10dp5dt FRER positive that we were definitely pregnant. (Our beta was 12dp5dt last time.  I am so glad we don't have to wait the weekend this time!)

So even though we are told not to test at home before our beta, it has actually been fun for me and my hubby to analyze and squint at the tests. ;o)  I am glad I decided to do it, even if we have false hope.  God is in control, and we are just along for the ride!  May His will prevail!