Ready for a Sibling!?!

Well, we are officially going back this fall for our next transfer if my mock transfer/exam at the end of April goes well.  I am so excited to see what the last 3 snowflakes and God has in store for us!  I am also really nervous to be completely honest.

We had always originally planned to have kids 2 years apart.  Of course infertility changes plans. =)  We of course always wanted 4 kids, also.  If we don't lose anymore embryos, then we will. ;o)  But not likely.  Seven months ago, I remember thinking, "There is no way I am going to do this again a year from now!"  Healing from the C-section, NICU, breastfeeding issues, reflux, protein intolerance, high maintenance baby... it all was so overwhelming at the time.  Funny how your opinion changes in 6 months or so.  It is all a distant memory and you just love your baby so much, you just want another one!! =)  It helps now that everything has settled into a nice routine of life.

But also being the detailed, analytical couple that we are, the logistics play a big part in the timing, too.  Our home study is still good for another year without an update.  With only 3 embryos left, depending on how things go, we may not have to pay a storage fee in September.  Our tax return was very large this year because my husband didn't adjust his withholdings yet after having the baby... so we have the funds to go back again.  The amount was pretty much the exact amount needed for this next cycle/transfer... seems pretty Providential to me.  Also having pregnancies two years apart saves money with maternity clothing (same seasons) and if it is a girl (and grows the same) we won't need much of anything.

We decided against having any back up embryos due to the mediation process/cost for open adoptions.  We will cross that bridge in the future if we have to.  The embryologist said that she sees God's hand in the sibling transfers.  Also "scientifically" we have a 70% chance of 2 of 3 thawing well for a transfer.

So weird to think I did all the meds and exams and paperwork for Sydney... seems like so long ago and not really related to her being here.  So weird how I have just forgotten about all that has gone into getting her here.  So worth it though!

My husband is super worried about having multiples.  But we will be fine, I tell him. =)  We would only transfer 2 healthy ones again like last time.  We might have to come back for the last one, only God knows.  We might not result in a positive pregnancy...  But I keep having to leave that in God's hands.  He has a plan for our family.  And I am content with what I have. =)  Honestly, I would love more children, but Sydney has fulfilled that mothering instinct in me.  If she is all I have, I am super grateful!