Gender Guesses?

I sooo can't wait until Friday to find out the gender of our baby...hopefully.  If anyone would like to guess whether boy or girl--I will calculate up the guess between here, facebook, and family and see what we come up with. =)




Also, I wanted to admit I am still getting used to this "I am actually pregnant and preparing for MY baby thing".  I was in the store yesterday looking at baby things when the mother of one of my high school friends walked up.  She also goes to church with my parents.  My first reaction was embarrassment of standing there looking at baby things.  I have not had the right to be in that section of the store before, unless I was shopping for a baby shower, so I would avoid it in order to avoid the reminder of my lack of a child.  She congratulated me on the news she had heard, and we chatted a bit.  It was nice.  But for some reason the whole time I kept thinking..."you caught me, I am so embarrassed".  Then when she left, I felt the need to leave that section quickly, but had to stop myself and realize how silly I was and that I had a right to be in that section buying baby items.  For goodness sake, Friday is technically the halfway point in my pregnancy.  Granted, most other moments I find myself loving being pregnant especially now that the belly is growing and I can feel the baby every now and then.  I just waver between grieving the life change, to excitement at what is to come, to fear of the unknown, to anticipation of new experiences.  I love the moments when I am filled with an overwhelming love for this baby instead of the detachment from before...I am thankful that my walled-up, infertile heart is starting to allow the bonding to begin.  Now if I could just get over the mental block that I am a mother now and have the right to prepare for my baby. =)