Be still & Know that I am God

Reminder on my wall

I just thought I would log what I have been processing and feeling the last 5 days.  5 days? That is all it has been?  The day of and day after transfer went by pretty quickly since we were still out of town and in a different environment.  I will have to say that I have taken at least one nap a day since and still sleep at night, but I believe that is the PIO shots.  I don't plan to nap today, now that the weekend is over and life is back to normal.  Friday and Saturday were pretty full with watching my nephew and friend's little girl run in the kids' mile and then watching my husband, father in law, brother in law, and friend's husband run in the 10 mile race on Saturday.  They all finished and did well despite the unusually hot day at the end of September.  They will all now be training hard for their marathon in November.  I am so proud of them.


Okay so since I am guilty of googling symptoms for ET.  I will post a timeline I have found helpful.  I don't know how accurate it is since it is from a forum...but seems pretty realistic...although I think they have misnamed the burying baby "morula".  I know that is the stage before blastocyst.


This is what happens in a 3dt :
1dpt ..embryo is growing and developing


2dpt... Embryo is now a blastocyst


3dpt....Blastocyst hatches out of shell on this day


4dpt.. Blastocyst attaches to a site on the uterine lining


5dpt.. Implantation begins,as the blastocyst begins to bury in the lining


6dpt.. Implantation process continues and morula buries deeper in the lining


7dpt.. Morula is completely implanted in the lining and has placenta cells &


fetal cells


8dpt...Placenta cells begin to secret HCG in the blood


9dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops


10dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops


11dpt...HCG levels are now high enough to be immediately detected on HPT






This is what happens in a 5dt:



-1dpt ..embryo is growing and developing


0dpt... Embryo is now a blastocyst


1dpt....Blastocyst hatches out of shell on this day


2dpt.. Blastocyst attaches to a site on the uterine lining


3dpt.. Implantation begins,as the blastocyst begins to bury in the lining


4dpt.. Implantation process continues and morula buries deeper in the lining


5dpt.. Morula is completely implanted in the lining and has placenta cells & fetal cells


6dpt...Placenta cells begin to secret HCG in the blood


7dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops


8dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops


9dpt...HCG levels are now high enough to be immediately detected on HPT
 
My symptoms have been interesting and encouraging.  I have had on and off cramping just like mild menstrual cramps since the transfer.  On Friday morning, I felt very "weird".  I felt light headed and kind of yucky feeling.  On Sunday morning during church, I felt the same light headed and weakness.  But that one only lasted for about 10 minutes.  Other than that, I have felt normal.  I am wondering what is related to PIO and what is implantation.  Today, though I have only felt bloated.  No cramping anymore.  If I follow the above chart, I am 5dp5dt and the implantation should have been complete by now. =) 
 
My honest feelings during this time have been mixed.  Going into this transfer, I knew that God had led us there and had orchestrated everything (I still need to log my journey).  I felt a peace that this is going to work.  But then afterward, my doubt crept in and my need to control took over.  I have feared I was doing too much and not eating the right things.  I would constantly be prompted by God to trust Him, and I would try for the next 5 minutes. =)  I can honestly say now, that I am in a much better place.  I will be content with whatever the outcome.  I am doing much better at being still and knowing that God is God.  He can do anything.
 
I also had to order more PIO today.  We are about to start the 3rd vial, and it took a little over a week to go through two.  With one week to go, I am glad I was paying attention since I assumed we had enough from the beginning to at least make it to the beta.  7 more days until my beta on Monday, 10/4.  I guess with the 9-10 days falling the on the weekend, I will have a 12dp5dt beta.  Hoping for big numbers. =)  So, I am hoping that Eski & Mo are still with us, but know that they will be in better place if not.  ;-)